My Tiny Blessing

I had you for a short time - too short. Ten weeks, a glorious ten weeks. You were innocent, special, and precious. I loved you more than my life itself. Could I have given my life for yours I would have, but that choice was not mine in the end. I prayed for you to come into our lives and then by a miracle, by the hand of God, you became a reality. The joy in my heart was immeasureable. Then one day I found that my precious baby was being taken from me. God gave me a gift, you, so beautiful and so wanted, but what God gives must one day be returned to Him. I cherish now, those ten weeks I had with you and the memories are all that I have left. How you felt as you grew inside me, the bond that can now never be complete. To say that I am sad isn't word enough. A part of me died when you were torn away. I try to see the good in what I did have. I had what so many women want but can't have. Even though it was such a short time, I was blessed to have had it at all. I will never regret your life though it was so short and I will remember the joy you gave me. Ten weeks may seem like so short a time, but for you it was an eternity with me. We have a bond that will never fade away. I know you will wait for me with eagerness and I look forward to seeing your face because I never saw it here on earth. I know I will see it someday and until then God will grant me the patience until I can hug you and look into those eyes. I often wonder what color are those eyes of yours? Big and brown like your sister's or sparkling blue like your brother's? Goodbye for now my tiny blessing, my sweet child. I love you with all of my heart. You are my third miracle. When I learned of your existence I smiled, fell in love, and thanked the Lord for you. When I discovered you were going to die, the pain was great. I will never regret one moment of your life and I hope that you know what a gift you were and are to our family. There will not be one day that you are not on my mind or in my heart. I know for now, our heavenly Father will hold you in His arms and bounce you on His knee. You are in His care now, an angel above. When you see me smile, know that I am smiling because I know that you are watching over us. I love you my dear child, my third miracle, my tiny blessing. One day we will all be together again. Love You Always and Forever, Mommy